I wrote this poem to the beloved who listened, matching my pace, and helped me trust men after losing my virginity to non-consensual penetration.
owning my unfolding
beholding –
tenderly thrust walls fall into bridges,
fondly fondling frolicking fractal ridges
trembling tendrils tactile amplifier
tantalizing tips condensing dewdrops of desire
permissive presence : pernicious past’s purifier
shedding shadow, newborn trust sole apt attire
seeping in scintillating blushing
musing oozing, giddy gushing
voluptuous voltage coursing, rushing,
melting molten muscles flushing
begging brushing
tender –
of yawning yearning pleasure portal petal mender
open offering to rapture render,
splendor in surrender
contender –
reorientation
wild with want : aching shaking potentiation
smoldering emboldening : elation in anticipation
broadening bandwidth splaying sensation
turbulence transforming, teasingly tucking tessellation
tickling tongue teasing texture : navigation in dedication to intoxication
evoking excitation at expectation of excavation
promiscuous proboscis provoking perspiration
nectar collector savoring searing syrup – salubrious libation
imbibing inspiration – inebriation in spiritualization
syncopation of stimulation – sensitization reverberation
salivation urging splurging of surplus hydration
exalted exhalation : elicitation of emancipation
invocation :
liberation in lubrication – summoning sanctification in sea of salvation
transubstantiation : materialization of supplication
illumination pouring into porousness, percolating pleasure, regeneration
flowing holy, holey hurt made whole in cooperation
ministration of adoration – demonstration of transformational veneration
restoration of celebration
channeling creation in elation
inspiring relational revelation
unification –
embodied enrobing : skin kin enveloped in compassion
perched on penetrating pillar of passion
fulfilled fullness, boundless, no need for ration
regretless receptive vessel : ravenous cavern refashioned
dear –
tactile temple – primeval cathedral made aware
of physicality as prayer
perpetually perceptually altered – novel possibilities appear
ascension into attention extension – floating on air
Relishing roaming rapturous realms bestowing care
Sloughing uncertainly, judgement, and fear
through eros erosion : carving capacity, flow for pleasure clear,
rejoicing in choice of paradise, perpetually near
holding heaven harmony everywhere